Sometimes when i think about my first time, I'm embarased and shamed. I
didn't want it to happen this way, but I was tired of being a virgin. I just
wanted to get it over with.
My friends an I were at a football game, when this guy Charles stars talking
to me. I've seen him around school and he's cute but I never knew him before
so I was surprised he approached me. There's a party after the football game
we decide to meet at. I hoped we'd get to know each other better there.
We continue our flirting as soon as we get there, relax a little with
drinking, and begin with our lips. I like kissing more than anything else,
and still do, especially with him. We somehow move into an empty room,
exploring each other with our hands.
I didn't expect sex, nor did i want it. But i didn't want to be a virgin
anymore, and I was curious. We started to undress each other, and began
heavy petting, and the next step was sex. It hurt like a motherfucker, and
had no pleasure value what so ever. I felt no different afterwards, ecept a
little awkward. I'm lucky that Charles really liked me instead of just using
me to get off. We've been to gether for 6 months now. I'm not proud of my
first time. I mean, I hardly knew the guy, and that was a pretty pathetic
excuse for loosing my virginity, beacuse I was tired of being a virgin. In
fact i feel pretty damn stupid now, should I?