Ok, to come to think about it now, I think 18 is kind of on the young side
to have sex. But nothing can change what happened now.
This is what happened. I guess I got curious about my body, and there was
this guy whom I was talking to on the phone. I have only met him 2 times
prior to when we had sex. I liked him and I knew he liked me. I met him
through the phone, by my girlfriend who liked him. I only called him up to
tease her about him, but I found out he didn't like her that way. So I got
this idea, well hey it's just out of curiousity and for fun. So one day I
called him and asked him if I could have sex with him. It took me forever to
ask him, I was just too shy and he was too much of a good friend, but I
secretly lusted over him (I thought he was totally hot and so did my friend)
Well I called him up one evening and just started up a conversation with
him. That conversation lasted for hours. Then I brought up the topic about
sex. We have talked about it before and I knew he wanted to try it since he
was a virgin himself. Yup, I was 15 then and he was 16. Well anyway, I'm
straying away from the topic. I finally asked him if I could have sex with
him. I guess he was really shocked of me to ask him that. I knew he liked me
already, but I think he was shocked about me liking him and me wanting to
have sex with him. I wasn't surprised that he would say yes to me. He cared
about me, we talked about what would happen if I got pregnant. Next we
talked about when we were going to do it. He had to work, but his parents
wanted him to go up to their weekend cabin, since it was long weekend
holiday. He didn't want anyone to be home when we were going to do it, He
wasn't sure about his older brother, but he didn't care, just as long as his
younger brother and the parents weren't going to be home. Until then we just
left it at that. He called me the next day, I was having second thoughts
about doing this by now, I just didn't want to get knocked up or anything,
that would suck if my parents found out. But I really did want to do it
then. So I told him that I was still up to doing it. He just called to make
sure, because he had to go to the bank to get some cash to get some 'latex'.
That's what he told me anyway. But he said he was going to work on Sunday,
but he would get off work about 5 pm. He wanted me to meet him at work (he
worked at McDonald's). On that sunday, I grew very nervous, I didn't want to
turn him off or anything. I took forever to shower and tried to figure out
what to wear. I did. After that I went down to his workplace and sat around
in the ordering area, he saw me and he said he would be getting off in 15
minutes. In the meantime, one of his co-workers asked me if I was his
girlfriend; I didn't know how to answer her, I guess I said yes. (I think
she asked, because he was looking at me in a wierd way, so I guess it was
just assumption) Anyway he got off work and we walked back to his house, no
one was home, his older brother had gone out. He then brought me to his room
and told me to make myself comfortable, while he went downstairs to take a
shower. I waited like 10 minutes and he came back wrapped in a towel. I knew
he was aroused already. I could just tell ;-) Well I could just see. He was
just in a towel. Then he told me to turn around while he went to put some
boxers on. Well I did turn around, but I had to look... I only saw his butt,
but boy he had a cute butt. Next he layed down on his waterbed and just
stared at me, he asked me if I really wanted to do it, it was all up to me,
he couldn't force me to do it. I said yes, but I was too shy to do anything
yet. So he asked if he could help me get over the embarrassment. I said yes.
So he took his boxers off and asked me if he could undress me. So he first
kissed me on the lips and started to take my jeans off... pretty soon all my
clothes were on the floor and I stood there naked with him. We continued
kissing, every kiss got more passionate. Then we both got on his bed and
were still kissing, but he started to feel my body up. He started kissing
and licking my nipples, and then he started going down on me, from my tits
down to my belly, and then he started to finger me. I was just getting more
and more aroused. First it started off with a finger, then he just got down
there and started to eat me out, while he was still fingering me. Then he
wanted me to suck him off. So I did blow him for awhile. His dick was big
enough for me. I just didn't want to choke on it, since I have a small
mouth... We went on for about an hour with the foreplay. I think the next
thing we did was 69. That was cool. I wanted to be on top for that, but I
got stuck on being on the bottom. Pretty soon, I was ready to do it. He
asked me if I was ready, since he thought I was wet enough. I was so ready
for it. So he put a condom on and slid into me. At first he couldn't get all
the way in, and then I felt intense sharp pain. Like there was a burning
razor inside of me. I didn't want to say anything, so he kept going, until
he saw the expression on my face; so he asked me if he was hurting me, and I
said sorta. So he stopped, he didn't want to hurt me anymore. But we still
kept on doing other stuff. He took the condom off, even if it hurt him a
bit. He went down on me again and contined to eat me, then I gave him head
again, this time for a longer time, I kept doing this until he came. He did
come, right into my mouth. I didn't know what to do with it, so I just
swallowed. It was interesting... kind of salty... After awhile, I wanted to
try it again. It took him a bit longer this time, but we tried, so he put on
another condom, and he couldn't get it in again... I guess I was kind of
tight, so I tried going on top of him. That worked, so we did it again, he
assumed I came, but I had to fake it, I didn't want to make him feel bad,
but I just couldn't. It still kind of hurt me. After that I got dressed and
I had to go home, or my parents were going to wonder where I went. He walked
me to the busstop and waited there until my bus got there. He told me to
call him when I got home, just to be sure that I am safe. I got home, and he
decided to call me. He called right as I walked through the door. He told me
that he had fun and he missed me.
Now... I haven't called him for a few days. I didn't want to be too.. eager
to him to try it again. I didn't know what were going to become of us. We
were friends, but more than friends, but not going out. I really liked him,
but in a way I wanted more. I just didn't know how to ask him, I thought he
would say no if I asked him out. I thought maybe he just wanted a sex
partner. But he called me a few days later and said he really missed me.. I
thought he missed me for the sex. (He might have) But he asked me out! I was
so happy. So then we started going out. A week after we had sex again it was
much better than before, he agreed too. After that day, we didn't have sex
again for awhile, we wanted to work on our relationship. But we did have sex
again.. ;-) So we went out for the next year and half... and the sad news
was we had to break it off. He was just too busy to spend time with me. He
was graduating and he had his soccer, and work. There was barely any time
for him to see his friends. It hurt me, but I got over him eventually. But
I'll never forget him... I haven't had sex with anyone else from then on...
I chose not to, I could. But I just can't. I want to wait for the person I
love, which there is someone I love right now. But I barely get to see him.
Since we live on the opposite sides of the continent. But I will get to see
him. He's younger than me. Only 16, but I'm only a year and a half older.
He's a virgin, so I yet will corrupt him. Hehe... Well he's waiting for me.
I love him and he loves me.. So I'll wait forever for him... even if we
chose to do it after marriage.. but I doubt we could wait that long. So
therefor I suppose I am a born again virgin. I will wait for the one I love.
I can't just "Fuck" any guy.. I know I can, but it's just not right of me.
So honey if you read this, You know I love you lots, and I can't wait to see
you my baby :)) But I just want to leave a note for people who are
desperate.... don't do it just beacause you wanna.... that's what I did, and
I regret it, I wish I wanted for the one I love. I wasn't in love then. Do
it because you love someone, because you care... Well... I was just stupid
then, I really wish I would have waited. I think 15 and under is kind of
young to be having sex, but I am one of those people. Love comes from the
heart, patience is a virtue... I'd wait if I had the chance to start all
over again... Hey well I've waited for over a year now...